Love Within A Lie

heart break or beat you choose.

I never honestly thought that I would see this day…

It is 3:00 AM, and yet again I cannot sleep. This seems to be my new habit, I have some how shape shifted into a night owl. But as I lay here in my bed thoughts just seem to be continually pulsing through my brain killing the pleasurable idea of sleep. These thoughts that I am having…you may be wondering what they are or why they are occurring, well the answer to those questions is short and sweet, yet still yields an ounce of bitter. 

I was completely head over heals in love…I know it’s cliche. Every young woman says, “He was the one” and “I could never live without him.” These are all typical thoughts of a broken heart. 

…But a broken heart isn’t losing the ones you’ve loved, it’s finding the one you lost.

You may not be reading this…but this here is not about being read, it is about being written. It is about getting all these pulsating thoughts out into the air.

You were the one and I could never live without you. You were the one who allowed me to see the painting as a whole, and not just mere object surrounded by dull hues that add beauty to the focal piece of the painting. You allowed me to see every aspect of of the painting that was once a blank canvas that I entitled my life. Without you, I could never live, because you brought forth every reason as to why life is so beautiful and how each second of every minute of every day of every week of every month of every year of my lifetime… life is all about love. You showed me that love for life, that reason to fight even when you want to throw in the towel. You have given me the strength, when I just want to crumble to the floor. 

To you, I thank you because you were the one, that saved me when I felt like life just wasn’t worth living. 

When people leave…all that’s left is to breathe. 

“pictures are constant reminders that the pain is real.”